Misadventures and Merry Misfortunes

I'm gonna kick my OWN ass.

Usually things tend to work out for us. I'm hoping that remains the case now.

We are planning on moving. We had an apartment set up in Taunton - holding fee dropped off and everything. It was going to be a little tight at first with the move in costs and all that jazz. Well, we then came into a little (a little) extra money - just enough that we could get into the apartment and not be broke the week afterwards.

Well not anymore.

The transmission in the truck just went. Minimum is almost $1900. There goes the apartment. So now we need to figure something out - or find another apartment - by November. There was a slight possibility of something awesome in Providence, but I don't know if the timing would work out or not. I hope to the gods it does.

Top this week off with the fact that I have a killer flu - haven't been able to eat anything because I've been coughing so hard I would  be throwing up if my stomach wasn't empty... plus a fever that is making me feel what I imagine Montgomery Burns feels like. (I just got a phone call that someone from one of the Larps I go to was hospitalized for H1N1, so I'm hoping to god I don't have that.... would be just my luck.)

Now we're scrambling trying to find a car so we can get to work AND faire - seeing as Rick was supposed to be in Carver for emergency rehearsals all week... **sigh**

Time to keep checking for places to live, trying not to vomit all over the place, and finding a temporary replacement car. **headdesk**

So I am rather proud of myself.

What seemed like an insane task has actually taken shape in the form of a completely killer website (if I do say so myself.)

I still want to mess with it some more, but in a nutshell, to get the music out to our apprentices, I decided to build a website with the music & lyrics so they could start learning now...

And it kind of exploded from there.

But I'm really happy with it thus far. It definately has been a creativity outlet and nice to learn something new at the same time. I like challenging my brain and it's certainly been easy to find challenges as of late, but this one wasn't as stressful as I thought it was going to be. It's actually very enjoyable, which is probably why it's gone from something that would have only needed a few pages and links so something that is now an outlet for my creativity. The best part is, the software can be used via FTP uploader, so I could make sites for any hosting service. *sigh*

It's just nice to have something to use as an outlet these days.

It's been distracting me from the other shit going on... and there's just so much of it to deal with. But hey, if I can go and lose myself for a few hours, well, I'm just fine with that. Keeps me from getting worried and depressed about the shit we need but just can't.... no, you know what, I'm not going down that road. Not so much in this post. I'm in a relatively good mood and don't want to darken it.

I think my dog broke his tail.... poor dude.

Then again, that statement probably should be... "I think my dog broke his tail again."
Crazy wiggly tail-wagging monster.

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I think I just fell asleep staring at my computer... awesome.

I am so freaking tired. Puppy was up at like 5:30. would not shut the hell up and go back to sleep. I try sleeping on the couch with her in the crate. No dice. Try sleeping on the couch with her next to me. No dice. Normally I'd be ok with this, however on an MJ weekend, no sleep. Sunday night, went to bed too late, dog was up at 6:30. Did not get to go to sleep at all during the day. I almost passed out for a nap once, but Rick woke me up. I forget for what. All I know is I am f'ing tired and I'm ready to lose it. I didn't get to bed until almost midnight last night anyway.

And the fucking dogs! Normally they are fine but all yesterday and this morning they just keep getting into these little tiffs. I'm so sick of breaking up fights. Normally, it's all Emma. No no, not this time. Logan is guilty of starting half of them, at least. Why all of a sudden we're fighting, I have no idea. But it has to stop. Now. I have rolled both of them on their backs at least 3 times EACH this morning for various bullshit. I keep wondering if I should just try and get a dog trainer in. They know their sits & stays and all that shit, and normally they are fine. It's just been the past few days, which to my tired brain is enough. I figure my desire for a trainer is just me wanting to throw in the towel and take a fucking nap lol.

jusrt broke up another fight.
I'm going to fucking kill them.

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Ya know, I used to say that my job was okay. I guess the job itself is just that... "ok".
However, the industry is tanking....

moral in the office sucks....

I'm really burning out, SSDD, all the time.....

and it really makes me wonder what the hell am I going to do with my life? (Ok, that question was mostly promted by a conversation with Tina, lol).

I'm fairly bright. I teach myself things far better than I am taught things, most of the time (if that makes sense...). So I figure I'm going to teach myself HTML, XHTML, and CSS. Go into work as a website designer. I'd LOVE to run my own website design business. I have a certificate in graphic design but eh... it really wasn't what I thought it would be when I worked out in a few shops. Oh well. I think with the website design I could do rather well. The graphic design background would certainly help in the design aspect (well, probably....) and all those years (wasted?) in college going for Fine Arts would actually (maybe) see some use. Which would be nice.

So now it's just down to choosing the right books to learn from. I *had* a gift card to Barnes & Noble... which is conspicuously missing from where I put it... so I wonder if Rick decided to "clean up".... faaaaaaahk. Oh well. Time to go get ready for work. Been up since 3:30 am with my brain a whirin' (ok, the 3:30 part was my stomach saying no, thank you, this was spiced incorrectly, we're sending it back) but when you can't get back to sleep and you sit there and drink coffee & think a lot it really kind of gets you motivated. Spring is a perfect time for change, and I really need something. So, yeah, the sooner I can get those books the happier my internal hampster-on-a-wheel will be. Just gotta either find that gift card or tell the boy he owes me a book... or two... you know, for my emotional distress over loosing a gift card... yeah.

GAH it's so beautiful out.
I can't wait until the next weekend I have to go play in the woods.... *sigh*

Working the Providence auditions tomorrow. We shall see what happens lol. Although, I'm thinking that being inside a theater hallway with probably no AC with a bunch of people sweating because they are nervous is not going to be all that awesome lol. Still, it'll be nice to see some people and have a look at any new talent we'll have coming in. Not working the Boston audition.

So Sunday I'm hoping to give Logan a bath, because he'll need it, frontline the two of them, and go on a nice long walk. Emma needs some leash manners lol. Getting her a Gentle Leader is probably not going to work, because she would have a caniption fit if I stuck anything on her nose. So we'll do it the old fashion way with a martingale & 2 leash system. Did it that way once and she seemed to get it pretty good. I just can't wait to open the windows and do a little spring cleaning. I'm not so much worried about spring cleaning the apartment as much as me. I am dying to schedule my hair appointment, give myself a change, ya know? I'm wishing all of my "hippy" skirts weren't ruined on the road, I loved them :/ of course now I can't find them. Anywhere. Nina had taken me to a store in Plymouth years ago that was a bit more "ethnic" but god knows I won't be able to find it again lol. Should probably try a Marshall's. Granted, I can sew one, but finding the right fabric would be the trick. Eh. Or I could just buy one lol.

I'm dying to get/make a new skirt for faire. I've wanted one in cornflower blue for EVER but for some reason I always wind up with friggin' green. I want a linen or cotten cornflower blue skirt. Not too much to ask, I don't think. debating on making myself a petticoat, but I don't know if they are period or not (not that it really matters, I suppose).

So yeah, babbling. And still staring out the window. Can I go outside & play now?

So recently I have decided that I would like to cut off my hair (again). I have mentioned this to several people in conversation and have gotten the following results:

"But you look better with long hair!" (sometimes said by people who have not known me long enough to remember when my hair was short)

"But you're so pretty!"

(insert grimace here) "WHY? Why would you do that?!"

"But what about the Faire?" (it's theater, they make wigs)

And just an honest, "Really, how come?"

Now, this has really made me wonder. What is it most people have againt women with short hair? I mean, I understand some of it. To go from longer hair to a drastically short style would make a lot of people cringe. I am a fan of constant change, myself, and am of the opinion that it is hair and it will grow back if I don't like it. (when last I did this, my hair was down to my ass and I handed Rick a pair of scissors and an electric hair trimmer and told him to make the hair go away. it took him five full minutes to cut through the ponytail.... my hair is THICK)

But why do people have such a decidedly negative reaction?

Seriously, comment with thoughts. I'm not angry over it, I'm just very intrigued as to reasoning. Is it because short hair is less feminine? Does it make a woman seem too masculine? Obviously there are certain stereotypes of a sexual preference, but there are plenty of straight women with shorter hair... Do any males reading this tend to view women as less sexy/attractive depending on hair length? And why?

I'm not looking for only positive comments, either. Be honest, brutally if need be. I am very curious.

(Not that this has any bearing over what I will do with my head. It's mine, and I will do as I like with it lol)